Not the "I need a nap" kind of tired."
The "I need a lifetime of sleep," "My bones hurt," "I need to disappear for a lifetime," "When did life get so hard?" Kind of tired.
It's a tired that seeps into your bones and sucks the joy right out of everything. It's the kind of tired that springs up from doing too much but also doing too little.....from checking off to-do lists but never checking off soul lists. From doing all the things but not doing the things that light you up.
And you know it's not supposed to be this way. You miss the days when that fire in your heart overpowered the sleepiness in your body. You miss the days when you felt like you could do it all....and wanted to.
The more exhausted you feel, the more distracted you feel. Because even though you are doing a lot, you keep seeing the things you aren't. The projects that aren't done. The work assignments that are shoddy. The people who are mad at you or who drifted away because you haven't had the time to see them. The weight you gained or the frumpy outfits you have or the fact you still can't seem to make a dinner everyone will eat.
Failure. Tired. Failure. Tired.
The mantra chants in your head on repeat. You miss the sunrise and sunset often because you are too busy trying to prove the mantra wrong.
But here's the thing. I see you. I see you trying so hard to make it all work and keep the smile on your face for everyone. I see you fighting it all alone because to ask for help is weakness.
But it isn't. It really isn't.
So reach out to someone. We are all here struggling in some way. We are all fighting the tired, failure mantra in some fashion. We all know that adult life....well, it's so much harder than we could have known.
Ask for help
Know it's okay to be tired.
Try to find the little luxuries in your life
today....because you deserve to take time for yourself. A coffee in your favorite mug. A short meditation. A moment of quiet.
Celebrate what you HAVE accomplished....because I know it's a lot, even if you don't realize it.
Rest. Sweet friend, take time to rest. The rat race only keeps going if you play the game.
Most of all, know you are beautiful, amazing, worthy, smart, and capable even on days when you can barely get out of bed.
Keep chasing your passion. Keep finding your passion. I promise if you do, you'll find that spark again.
And for goodness's sake....pause and look at the sunrise or sunset today. Don't forget that living today is a gift, even if it doesn't always feel like it.
Stay safe and be true,
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USA TODAY Bestselling Thriller author with Avon Books (HarperCollins), The Widow Next Door, The Diary of a Serial Killer's Daughter, and other creepy thriller books